Yep

 

Not working for a decade, wouldn't respect my boundaries, became a slave to him food & sex. If I didn't give it to him every night AT least once I was selfish and NEVER gave him any... Sometimes I'd wake up, (I'm a  heavy sleeper) 

And I wake up... Knowing he's been there ... 

Meaning he'd Fuck me while I slept, then go on with his day... I'd wake up often like this. 

If he was hungry he made himself something, if I was hungry I'd have to ask him, or I was selfish bitch for not thinking of him too. But he never made me food, never asked... I think the only time he did was when he'd ask if I want toast. 

Toast for 9 years is all he offered.

(I have my income, he has none, but me asking him to chip in, financially, or to feed the cats, it was like pulling TEETH...) HE ONLY worked 2 jobs 3 months... In 9 years, you can't blame depression when you refuse to talk to a therapist about it.

But me wanting to talk to a therapist, I was insane to want to tell anyone ANYTHING.

I SPENT A LOT OF MY RELATIONSHIP BEING CALLED 

"CRAZY BITCH, STUPID BITCH, LOONEY TUNES, LOONY, ETC..." CUZ I ASKED him to find work, or move out...

I broke up with him December 2020...

He STILL lives here... He won't leave, but I'm still and ALWAYS was the problems

Wanna know my issues? 

I spent my whole life being the "deemed slave" of the family, every boyfriend/friend introduced was taught that that was my role in life ... So I had to do all the SERVING, COOKING, CLEANING, SHOPPING... 

SO AFTER YEARS OF taking all the responsibility, I just GET LAZY in my own space. 

I kept the house clean but my room was my business... Well my family only mentioned my room, not the housework I'd do day in a s day out, making their meals... Drinks, whatever.

If you're not gonna help, then I'll take a day or 2 off...

That's when he'd get mad and say I never did anything... 

His job is the Bathroom. And Garbage. He doesn't scoop the litter Daily... 

And when he's here I won't scoop it... Cuz I do EVERYTHING ELSE. If he's NOT PAYING RENT he can scoop the poop and take the trash out. 

But I'm a stupid lazy bitch cuz I won't do it myself...

I SCOOP IT DAILY when he's gone. 

Its cuz that's how you take care of a cat. 

They're afraid of him anyway... Watch him pick Kremlin up to feed him, Kremlin gets all shrinky and cowers.

He refused to watch Jackson Galaxy for YEARS ...

IT WAS ONLY 2 YEARS Ago He stopped Biting KREMLIN AND POSHAS EAR when they went in his room literally Bit til they squeal... I WANTED TO HIT HIM FOR THAT! ITI didn't cuz he'd literally kill me for it.

But DAMMIT (THEYRE NOT ALLOWED IN his room, he screams and sprays them if they try to or peed by the door...  

 They always try to go in when I'm there, and he screams that I LET them...No they just feel SAFER with me...

Their nose can be TOUCHING the doorjam and he grabs the spray bottle and screams at them to GET THE FUCK OUT, OFTENTIMES ITS WHILE I'm mid sentence asking him something. So he cuts me off and screams IN MY DIRECTION (usually I don't even know the cat is there so he scares the crap out of me)

You don't scoop it, it's your fault when they pee elsewhere... Don't punish them cuz YOU DIDN'T CLEAN THEIR BOX.

Another thing he does. He's left boxes stacked outside his door for the entire time we lived here... But when the cat scratch their claws on them, He screams at them...  We don't have a full cat tree just these cardboard things I pay for and the boxes he leaves in the hallway. 

Entrapment.

Leave a cup on the floor, gets mad at the cat for putting their nose on it, screams at them.

He's terrible and thinks the people we stayed with 2 weeks are responsible for them being afraid of HIM... 

THEY WERE in a crowded home for weeks, but I'm sure all the trauma came from you screaming at them for everything they do.

Oh oh... Another asinine rule he had for the cats. They're not allowed in the bathroom while he's in there at all, showering, peeing, or when he cleans their box (he doesn't clean it jus just scoops, I CLEAN IT) 

BUT... IF THE CAT tries to use the box within 20 minute of him cleaning it he freaks out.

They want a clean potty to go in, he cleans it but then he gives them a TIME FRAME to go potty?!

Fuck you dude, let my cats go potty when they need to.

I tell him "then Move the boxes, don't scream at them for doing what's natural to them" he responds with

 "I DONT CARE, THEY'RE GONNA LISTEN AND DO WHAT I SAY"

So I tell him he shouldn't have cats.

I've done a lot of stupid shit in relationships, but I will TAKE MY BLAME IF I DESERVE IT.

I NAGGED him to get work for 9 years 

That's my problem, I let him walk all over me... 

That's Why I was the problem... Cuz I discovered his secret and blew his cover.

Things he told me about his new gf..

(Never asked, he just wanted to rub his new love in my face) 

Her favorite movies are Shawn of the Dead, and Night of the Living Dead...

(My two favorite movies, btw... And one I can't watch anymore cuz it was his (sorry it was JESSIES, NOT his)

So his new gf loves my fave movies .

Told me how she's been traumatized and been threw WAAAY more than I ever was ... (Meaning he's comparing her life to mine, and his knowing her a couple months, knows shes "worse off"

She's besties with a Internet Celeb I love, wooo, rub that in my face now...

Oh and this is the best one

The night he told me, 2 days before Christmas 2021, he told me "SHE SAID IM THE ONLY ONE WHO GETS HER MOTOR RUNNING"

HE has never paid rent, bouncing back and forth between his new girlfriend and his ex of 2 years... Mommy pays his child support the entire time we were together... Never worked or paid the rent, wed have to beg his family  or mine to help 

I stopped Going to his family with him. 

He used me as a DISTRACTION. HIS UNCLE didn't like his wife giving money to a jobless deadbeat, so he'd make me tgo with him to distract him while he gets money from his aunt. That was his Work... That's how he made his way... He still always has money somehow... But HIS WHOLE DAMN FAMILY THINKS IM THE LOSER. 

FINE.

I'm the loser who put up with your deadbeat chump who won't even work to pay his child support...

Evading work so you don't have to pay child support... That's also financial abuse .. 

So youre financially abusing your family, mommy paying your child support, auntie paying your gas and for your electric razors you need to shave but never work...

You don't Pay Your child support...

Your mom pays each kid $75 a month ($150 check split between 2 kids for the last 9 years... That's what his mommy pays, then he doesn't send it for weeks or months... Most kids get like $600 a month at least...

Oh and both his exes?

They were crazy.

He told me he cheated on his wife (mom of daughter)   with the mother of his son 

So when he  sleeps with his ex gf, his wife finds out... Then They're the monsters who set him up.

So he told me his wife left him cuz he cheated with his ex gf... That was the story 9 years ago when we got together...

Now... December 2020... I asked him if his ex would let him go unemployed that long, he SAID "no, she left me after 6 months of being unemployed"

So the story changed from him cheating and getting caught, to now my story that SHE let him go 6 months unemployed...

So, what he did there, was he took his story, deleted it, then used my story to make me feels sorry??... What's that do, make me more of a doormat than his ex wife cuz she only needed 6 months of this... I stayed 9 years. 

He never takes responsibility.

Again. My PAST screamed in my ear 1 inch from my actual ear... IN FRONT of this ex...

Now any time I raise my voice "stop SCREAMING IN MY EAR" 

WHEN IM 8 feet away...

Another one.

His ex must have told him that he had her "walking on eggshells"

Which is something abuse victims of narcissistic rage go through...

Every time I would ask him something he didn't like, or asked him to do something and he'd yell at me and I'd respond..., or raised my voice in any way at me " I'm not gonna walk on eggshells for you ever"

 

I know that was His exes words, when he started using the "screaming in my ear" thing that he uses person stories against his victim to keep them down.

Whatever his ex told him, I'm sure is gonna be a tactic to keep her down and stuck in his talons. He had me for 9 years, thinking Poor Guy, been through so much

And he has, he's gone through shit... But it doesn't EXCUSE behavior. He doesn't take responsibility for anything.

Jobless for 9 years but I was the problem for asking him. Sorry Nagging him for help. 

I honestly think they're both narcissists. And he wanted someone who didn't fight back (at the time) 

Well I do NOW.

(Mine helped once every 8 months or so, his he'd go to twice a month for spending money, then he'd keep it from me, but expect me to pay for shit)

And his favorite joke, that I told him I didn't like and didn't feel comfortable with him saying?

"I like my women like I like my coffee, ground up and in the freezer"

So I wonder why I stayed 9 years...  I've been. Afraid to leave with no help. 

He was my ride to anyone's house... and I had and still have no way out.

He's at his GFs house.

He didn't tell me Friday about an inspection the following Thursday cuz he didn't trust me with his things... But he trusts me now that inspection is over, and he goes to his gf?

Could this be a Twisted Con in the Carterverse?

 

Wow, do they look related to You?

Interesting to find out if they are related ...

Interesting twist in the Carterverse.

 What are your thoughts? 

Answer Do They Look Alike?

Yes your answer is anonymous 🤪

#carterverse #aaroncarter #tika #scotiansavage #andruwinter #conningaaroncarter #trolls 

Narcissistic Abuse and Family & Friends Alienated...

 

My PREVIOUS ex from 15 years ago, who worked only for beer, and ditched me when we couldn't afford rent...

This Man, while I was going through shit, he asked me to share something that would help him out because he also went through some emergency. I did share his post.

 Then, I was told by family, not by him or my mom) I with my mom and driving her car. While he asked for help. But didn't tell me. 

And he's friends with my sister and brother... They don't talk to me either.

Not that I want to talk to my brother, he's always been a jerk, ask ANYONE in my family, that's just my brother... 

My sister does ONCE in a blue moon, but not in a Sister way, more like a

 "shit, let me throw a bit of money to shut that woman up"

Its probably NOT HOW it is, but it's definitely how it feels.

My family never calls. I'm the one who has to contact them FIRST, every time, and since no one cares, it's usually to ask for help only cuz people don't care when I just want to say hi.

I've spent years from relationship to relationship, starving for this love and attention I never get from the people who are supposed to be there.

 Then, I noticed how my mom would train the guys I'm with that ALL THEIR NEEDS WILL be met, men rule the house. Then she would sit back and let me do everything...

My last 4 boyfriends have been trained by her to make me do everything like a fucking servant...

My RECENT ex is what made me notice, yes, the one who I've gone through SO MUCH trauma with, HE made me see this...

Because he was like this at her house too, and I'd get pushed on either side. He'd say "don't  do everything for her, and I don't want to help, so let's go"

But she would say "You didn't finish every last dish, you left a spoon in the sink at Thanksgiving, you don't love or respect me"

And people wonder why I'm lazy in my own space after spending all day waiting on people hand and foot in the community space.

I'm just annoying. I'm just always too sad, moody, needy. Oops sorry. Its called trauma from neglect. I'm growing up and DIGGING myself out. I will Not Be A VICTIM. 

I should have someone to turn to, and not worry whether my EX from over a decade ago will be there.

But now I just need to Be there for MYSELF.

Knowing my mom Loves Me, but also seeing that I was raised to be an adult since I was a child... I was Jr Mom, I was taking care of my family... The CHILD being the mom... 

It took my entire life to realize this was abuse. 

I forgive my mother in so many ways. My childhood blessed compared to hers. 

I feel like I was raised to take care of her cuz she just didn't want to do it anymore. Now she is mad at me that I'm not at her beck & call, so she doesn't call me. Now she has my ex.

My birthday card called me her best friend. But she hasn't called me in over a year. 

She doesn't txt me, unless I repeatedly text her.

I was only raised to be a slave to someone my entire life. Well I'm tired too. 

This is why I forgive her. My life was a cake walk compared to hers.

It's also why I felt I needed to take care of her AND sacrifice my life for it. 

Wonderful it is to be the Scapegoat.

I blame Cultural ENABLING & silence.

I was raised to take care of her physically, to wait on her, while my sister was raised to financially take care of her. 

We were both cultured In Artistic Skills, dance, music, but my sister was the social butterfly so she was the breadwinner. She would take care of her financially later on. In the meantime I would sacrifice my life to take care of her. Since I stopped, she stopped calling and got my ex in her life to make me feel like shit, remind me that My friends and Exes we're always better than me. (Ask any friend of mine, she let them have whatever they wanted, the guest of honor, and I'd be the one to give it to them) 

But that wasn't intentional... She just wanted help since my sister moved to make her career.

I been serving her her meals since she was a baby. On a Silver tray... 

Narcissistic Abuse from My Perspective

  

So much for not posting anymore....

 

I've had enough of this man

"Everytime you call me crazy, I get more crazy

What about that?

And when you say I seem angry, I get more angry

And there's nothing like a mad woman

What a shame she went mad

No one likes a mad woman

You made her like that"

#taylorswift

#madwoman

Taylor's helped me SOOO MUCH through this relationship. 

She has no idea.

I decided to record him telling me he wasn't gonna move, listen to all the projection, the disrespect, name calling.

Yes. I do a bit too. Only after being called a stupid bitch multiple times and told to shut the fuck up cuz I'm not allowed to ever raise my voice no matter how valid the reason. 

Finish through the end.

I told him after the first one you hear that I was recording, but DM memos are hard to click when YOU'RE arguing and defending your sanity. 

Repeatedly I've asked him to leave, he doesn't pay rent, never did. He's just milking it and taking advantage and financially and emotionally abusing me cuz he can. 

I pray for his new gfs SANITY.

5 days a week this is what I go through. Since December 2021 and he goes to his GFs...

I broke up with him December 2020 though, why won't he LEAVE?

HE DOESN'T Pay rent, or child support to his exes, his Mother does... H

keeps me from getting my mail & apartment notifications. 

PROOF Of why I've always got a chip on my shoulder and blow up on people when they suggest things. I've tried everything, except police. That would just ruin his life. 

And he'd have more to blame me for.

She's got years of being a doormat & a slave in store.

First listen to the playlist, then read up on what I post below, and possibly watch again from a new perspective

How many names did I call him? I did say  mean stuff... but true Stuff. Mooch, deadbeat what did he call me? How many times did he mock and belittle me?

I call him out for using me for a decade... But' I'm A STUPID BITCH, idiot, moron, lunatic, mehh mmehhmeeeh meeeh he mocks me...

All I ask is for my apartment back. My life back. To not be used.

He knows what he's doing and he just doesn't care. 

How many times did he call himself an asshole cuz I deserved it. How many times did he scream at me telling me not to yell at him, when I was just CALLING him out for abuse...

He literally says "I'M AN ASSHOLE BECAUSE YOU'RE ACTING LIKE A BITCH"

IM only acting like a bitch, he admits to being an asshole though 

Intentionally, and intentionally keeping important things from me.

Narcissists are like Toddlers in a Tantrum Loop, no respect, you'll never get respect or be right. 

🙏

Narcissistic Abuse Playlist 

Here's the info to look through 

Narcissistic Abuse & Projection

I'd post screenshots, but my phone won't let me post these cuz they're screenshots... I need a new phone...

#NarcissisticAbuse #EmotionalAbuse #FinancialAbuse 

I'm not posting anymore. No point.

I'm not posting anymore. No point. Barely anything worth living for, I wish I could just take this page down and crawl into a fucking hole & die

Money issues consume me more than anyone knows or cares, depression consumes me even more, my life is a series of downs. I try to be hopeful, but the more I go on, the more it seems like there's no point. 

I wish I had anyone at all that cared. someone, I honestly don't care who.

Someone literally told me this today.

It's the story of my life. 

Well I'm tired of this literal daily feeling. Yearly theme. 

I'm sorry 

I'm so fucking depressed

I'm not strong.

I don't know how much longer I can do this. I'm sorry

 

😩 Progress (Updated)

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Heart Shattered, Mind Blown... My ex of 8 years got 9/10 of these. 

(He gave me TONS of compliments...  )

Apparently that was just manipulation. 

He LITERALLY never even loved me... He THOUGHT he did... I THOUGHT he did, but literally he just used me for 8 years. 😭😓

Then when I stopped letting him use me, he acted like I was a traitor, BETRAYING him, then found a new woman to do the same thing to. 

He can't even take care of himself and he found a new person to leach onto... SMH 🙄

He spent all his time in his Man Cave, no time with me, or if he did it was out of obligation... Expected me to bring him his meals. Holidays didn't happen with us, unless his family Invited us and we had to go there empty handed cuz his inability to find work and my Income gone to rent. 

All I wanted was a Partner who put in EFFORT. IF I NEED Help with Bills, and never get that, but get yelled at that I'm Insensitive and not understanding of a lazy narcissist who just wanted a place to live and be alone (man cave 24/7, though he has 2 man caves, and his girlfriend house...), and cook his meals. 

Omg the Tantrums & Lectures 🙄

And a few days ago he treated me like a child belittling me the store when he didn't like the bottled water I was buying. Lecture & snotty attitude & dirty looks for water He didn't like ... Poor cashier looked like she needed to call the cops.

Watch this video on narcissists Controlling people's diet... 

Yeah

He projects his faults on me, can't own up to anything, calls ME a narcissist... (I'm definitely guilty of things before I researched narcissm, but he's Textbook, yet QUICK to find any fault I may have so he isn't responsible. 

(Just like letting him use me and live rent free while serving him food, pleasing him whether I wanted to or not, but my unhappiness wasn't enough for valitidy in breaking up with him, I in turn BETRAYED him for not letting him go a ninth year without work and no income. I betrayed HIM cuz he spent 9 years depressed denying therapy, and accusing me of being insensitive.

(He also said my blog was a waste of time... That made me I lose drive to work on my blogs for a while (same thing Brian Laundrie did to Gabby, said her blogs were a waste... He had issues with bottled water too... W&t ability to manipulate anyone into believing anything he said...  I would hope he wants to work on these things too. He's got a Serious Anger issue... Short fuse (quarter or a millimeter)  

Then after a couple years I kinda burst back in but directed on myself and what I was going through instead of my business, I had no one listening to me on a personal level, especially my ex, so I just posted here... soon I'll get back to more business or make a new business page )

PS I CAN'T WAIT to find work 😉 

First 2 apps got me calls. About to put in a few More. 

Oh... when he said he wanted to be allies, STILL be friends. 🙄🙄

(Note to the Ex:)

BUT INSTEAD of seeking Therapy, and going to A Temp Agency... (They hire on the spot, so no excuse for 8 years of unemployment makes up for that) and Making yourself better, you hop into some other poor broken women's bed to break HER down into your little puppet. 

Replacing the woman won't work. FIXING YOURSELF will. It's called Growth. But you've been hopping into beds since your ex wife and it just never ended. Literally how much time between girlfriends did YOU have? (The last couple I'm also guilty of, which is why I noticed patterns like this when looking into this topic. I was repeating behaviors my exes used on me. My first love married the next girl he dated and then tried to date me after their nasty divorce. I spent 6 years healing, had dealt with my second bitter breakup and rekindled with that first love. BIG mistake. After he left me the second time, married THAT  next girl too, it sent me into a whole needing to just be with someone instead of healing AGAIN from him. So the next couple bfs didn't have MUCH space between, maybe a few months to a year, one I moved on within weeks when they wouldn't leave my home... he finally believed me when I started dating someone else. I started feeling that to be heard or taken seriously, I needed a NEW relationship to move on. Otherwise they'd come back a (hoover)me again. 

Jump to TODAY when my ex  FROM THE PAST LIVES my mom and I can't even think of visiting her without running into him... AND SHE DOESNT return my calls. The ULTIMATE Ex Hoover Manipulation.  

She can love him all she wants, but it's not the way to get back into my life. I don't date Exes, especially ones I've dated multiple times already... He can Bite Me too.

I won't Make you so Anything, but If I ask and you stomp your feet and throw a tantrum cuz you don't WANNA, why the hell should I "oh poor baby" you? 

GROW up 

I want a man who knows what hard work is, knows what struggle is and can work their way out OF IT. Someone who wants to have a TEAM, NOT A MOM.  

HIS MOM still helps him with EVERYTHING... ENABLING HIM. I love her dearly, she's the main reason he and I survived, I do owe her a lot, HOWEVER, SHE RECENTLY pointed her finger at me as If I didn't feel sorry for him enough and didn't give him enough chances or something. 

MOST WOMEN would leave someone after 10 months of this. I lasted 8 years. The years went on and on and made ME more depressed. It was my fault for being a doormat soo long, but not my responsibility for him not finding work and stepping up. I GAVE HIM YEARS of support, found him potential employers, was a name for his references, and he never went to a temp agency even though he knows they hire on the spot... He didn't want quick work he wanted excuses to not have work.

 I just refused to be a second mother/enabler for any longer and he didn't like it (his mother especially, cuz now she is helping him even More, and helps me cuz he never was able to help me, and I'm stuck til I find more income.

I will find work though, super quick because I actually WANT work & WANT to succeed. 

SORRY, Not Sorry. 

I spend years alone, with only my blog to talk to, so this is me working through my experiences.... 

This is NOT me "living in the past" this is me Learning From my past, and expressing it. Speaking MY truth & growing, (AND EVEN hoping for some sort of validation after years of being ignored) it isn't living in the past it's preparing for better future relationships. 

Living in the past would be marrying someone who is the cause of all your pain cuz it's convenient. That's living in the past. 

Some MARRY their abusive past without even realize it taints their future, I'm just moving on before I got to that point. Marriage doesn't fix problems, it HIGHLIGHTS them. Thank GOD I never married him. That's Just more of a financial nightmare and possibly YEARS of torment avoided... 🙏  

Belittling ABUSIVE Ex Bf can FUCKING BITE ME

Oh, and Dan, YES YOU, PATHETIC LEECH, stay the F OFF MY BLOG. YOU HAVE A NEW GIRLFRIEND, you don't need to be On MY blog. You HAVEN'T LEFT MY HOME, BUT CAN'T STOP CHECKING IN ON ME, GETTING FUCKING JEALOUS OVER MY BEING SINGLE. Having someone maybe like me OMG oh No... 🙄

Go back to your new delusional supply, while you have her in your future faking mode. 

 Me having ANY eyes on me, I'm Not yours jerk. Stay off my page. 

This video is word for WORD about my ex.

Down to the financial abuse, lack of empathy, and stonewalling and blame shifting.

 

 I FEEL SO SORRY FOR HER, you sit here on my blog, mad that I dropped your financially verbally abusive ass, I saying I'm the loony tunes, crazy bitch, idiot, moron, stupid ... How many things did you call me in the last 2 days? How many? 

 SHES GONNA REALIZE SHE WAS TRAPPED IN YOUR LOVEBOMBING TO SEE THE LAZY Mooch ON THE SURFACE. I'd he has money, he probably got it from family. LOVE GOGGLES SUCK. OH WELL, HER PROBLEM NOW. SORRY GIRL. ILL PRAY FOR YOUR DIGNITY AND SANITY, HES GOOD AT BELITTLING AND GASLIGHTING AND STONEWALLING. HES FANTASTIC AT PROJECTION TOO. IF you could make money by being like that, he'd be a millionaire... Wait plenty of millionaires are like that, he just doesn't have DRIVE. HE WANTS to mooch, he wants his mommy to pay his bills and his child support while he sits on his ass playing twiddledinks with his talents (meaning wasting his talents instead of using them)

He will promise to get his resume ready, then nothing will come of it. Iron the same clothes literally month after month, having not worn them yet. I been cutting his hair, shaving his back month after month for this Job App, this is now 8 years, times 12 months each, of waiting on him to get work. (h ohhh he's 2 jobs jobs with maybe 3 months each... 6 months of employment and he barely helped with bills when he did, he bought music equipment and yelled at me for mentioning bills, it's His Money, hell do what he wants with it 2 months later unemployed and not helping with bills again, 

She's gonna have years of haircuts before he actually applies himself.  He doesn't WANT to. He wants to mooch off his family and do nothing. I want him out of my home before I find work (I got 2 interviews right after I put in 2 applications, he applies at 2 in 2 years and didn't get an interview.  

So, honey, you better make money, cuz he may as well be your sugar baby.

Get OUT if you have your dignity, or send him to THERAPY AT LEAST ... DON'T LET HIM BELITTLE YOU MON...

And DAN, BE ANGRY ALL YOU WANT. YOU DIDN'T WANT TO HEAR IT IN MY HOME SO Hear it out loud on my PERSONAL JOURNAL BLOG ONLINE. GET OUT OF MY PLACE, QUICKER. A YEAR IS LONG ENOUGH FOR ME... I'M OVER IT, AND YOU AND YOUR FACE. And your ABUSE. AND YOUR MOMS FINGER IN MY FACE. 

And um, when I stopped going 👇... I did that k after stopped enjoying you as a bf. I need a man that wants to take care of me, not one I need to baby and he doesn't have to do shit. So yeah I went a couple years not enjoying literally ANYTHING about you. I loved you, of course, but you using me, you didn't care about making Me   HAPPY, YOU just wanted to make YOU happy. Literally. Your not being a MAN WHO TAKES care of his woman, that woman sure af not gonna take care of that... Unless she's a doormat...   But go ahead and act like my staying with you an extra 3 years and letting you leech off me, eat my cooking, and abuse me repeatedly, yeah, sure act like I "stabbed you in the back"

Delusional Head case.

Abuse a dog for years, then get mad when the dog bites you, YOU'RE the problem. Not the dog. Oh yeah, you don't like "dogs" at least the year of them, and even thought you love our cats, they're terrified of your energy. Literally petrified.  Especially Kremlin. You say " if I find out who did this to Kremlin to make him this skittish" but you don't get that it's mostly YOU dude. Sorry. Learn how to treat animals, cats. Watch Jackson Galaxy. Cesar Millan

Not like you'll do anything that will make you grow and become a better person. Just find a new woman who will let you be the same jerk you've been for years.

You need at least 2 years of being single and working and paying bills before you're even READY for a new relationship, but you jumped into bed with her cuz, like Narcissists, they can't go without a relationship. Since I wouldn't feed your narcissism, you found a new supply. That's what it's called.

Oh, and you need a get anger management classes, because you go from 0-1000 red-faced blackout angry over the tiniest stuff. Especially when someone calls you on your abuse, then you start SCREAMING LIKE AN INFANT. 

God forbid you learn your issues and work on them...

You love to tell me how TRAUMATIC her life has Been, don't make her life more traumatic.

Have fun with your new apparently, according to you, more "broken" supply